Climbing the walls ’til my nailbeds bleed

Words on your tongue, only built to deceive.

No energy left to go blow for blow

Secrets exposed, with nowhere to go

No reason to fear, I won’t call your bluff

I truly do think that I’ve had enough

Sorrow coursing steadily through all of my veins

Refusing to let emotion take over the reins

Whatever the outcome I’ll shall rest assured

Being played by you has been fucking absurd

You wormed your way in with pizzaz and a smile

A wolf in sheep’s clothing, well disguised all the while

Always setting your mark and you making your moves

Not giving one fuck about who you lose

Gave you all that I had, but it wasn’t enough

What will you do now that I know all of your stuff

Lies upon lies, hurt swells, then subsides

Lips pursed tight, no one more the wise

Rest that worried mind, your secrets I will keep

Question is though, how did I get in so deep

Searing agony inside, but my feelings I stuff

Realizing that I will never be enough

I kept it so real through thick and through thin

Despite all my pain throbbing deep from within

I wish you no harm, want to see you succeed

I believe in your mission, your hopes and your dreams

No one with a conscience could do what you do

But remember in time, karma always comes due

Everything now, so thoroughly clear

Try all you want, but you can’t be sincere

A suffering soul, projecting self hate

Immeasurable pain, no one else can translate

Let business be business and peasure be pleasure

Giving you support through joint endeavors

No longer will I be your pawn

Should I or shouldn’t I make you gone



Pom poms hurling toward the sky

Never let them see you cry

Pause so slightly, wonder why

All your dreams forsaken


 Sideline cheers, inducing fears

Eternal waits, a thousand years

Wheels in motion, grinding gears

All your love’s been taken

black_zodiac__the_bound_woman_by_astrozerk04-d318w9w Died this death a thousand times

Within the confines of the mind

Expectations no different this time

A soulless shell, forgotten

zombie_cheerleader_idea_by_steevinlove-d2ym0jc Numbing til the pain subsides

Smiles provide a place to hide

Easier to give up than try

 Silent, Screaming, Retreating

padded_cell_by_mr_book_faced-d5ffglq  Hope appears too distant

And all is far but well

Climb inside the shell to hide

 My very own private hell

Anonymous Narcotic

Anonymous Narcotic


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The edges are closing in
The walls around me suffocate
Grant me bittersweet release

Take me where I stand
Fill me up I beg of you
I’m not fazed in the least

Grant me every high
I’ll take each low willingly
Numbness brings it’s own reward

No true sense in feeling
There’s no real shame within the game
I make this choice of own accord


There it is, the pay-off
Reality scares me no longer
I’m free within its dull confines

Turning back reveals no path
It is inside, I feel as much
Each stroke makes clear its design

It’ll level out in time
I’ve been here many times before
I know its ebbs and flows

One more now just for luck
It’s safer if I take this hit
Before my vein begins to close


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Heaven in Hell

Heaven in Hell


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The sun is shining bright today
No clouds to be discerned
I’m taking up my right to play
it’s no less than I’ve earned

Each solar ray it scalds my skin
Creates a welcome blister
For something dark exists within
This fresh late summer vista

The heat is ever more intense
Too much for me to bear
I’m just beginning to make sense
of this cruel sun’s hot glare

Engulfed by flames flesh burning fast
Nerve endings all but shot
Each labored breath could be my last
Within this melting pot


The screams that ring within my ears
of souls forever tainted
Will stay with me throughout my years
as death becomes acquainted

Damned for all eternity
The choice not mine to make
I plead you’ll come and burn with me
Though not for heaven’s sake

Suffering in solitude

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Blood Most Cruel

Blood Most Cruel

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It courses through your veins
Blackened sludge with harsh intentions
It contradicts the brain
Slackening your comprehension

It’s slowly taking hold
Stealing away your right to choose
Regular thoughts annulled
Til nothing’s left for you to lose

You may as well accept it
It matters not if you resist
Your body can’t reject it
It forms a deadly catalyst

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Syringe dripping hate
It’s a lethal damn injection
and once you take the bait
There’s no escaping the infection

Your heart begins to slow
It’s beat is steady fading
And as the cruel blood flows
You cannot halt it cavalcading

Not fussy as it plays
One-sided fight which won’t end well
It is the end of days
and you are headed straight to hell


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The Sanity Clause

The Sanity Clause


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Where is my mind?
I’ve lost it you see
and have no idea
where this item could be

I had it just now
Could’ve sworn that I spotted
my mind sitting right
in the space I allotted

Now it has gone
its absence is curious
I feel slightly mad
where I should be quite furious

I’ve looked everywhere
and searched every cranny
Without it I’m screwed
as I’m going doolally


My sixes are sevens
what was up is down
My shoelaces tied
and my pants are pulled down

Losing your mind
is really no joke
Too cruel a demise
for regular folk

To me it is fun
a game that I play
For lost it may be
but it’s not far away

I use it at will
Discard it as fast
If I keep on this way
then my…

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The Ballad of Barbara Bloch

The Ballad of Barbara Bloch


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Life can be cruel and death most unkind
Hate’s 20:20 while love remains blind
Hope appears fleeting, despair likes to linger
All appears lost when there’s nothing to find

Darkness replaces that one source of light
Strength dissipates when requested you fight
Life ebbs away as death comes to play
A glorious day yields an ominous night

For Barbara Bloch fate played its cruel hand
It wasn’t concerned with the things she had planned
She’d led a good life, with kindness and care
and wasn’t aware she was already damned

A victim of circumstance, snuffed out by crime
By all accounts now simply wasn’t her time
So much still to see and plans in the making
All ceased as the death toll decided to chime


Hardly a moment to breathe her last breath
No time to prepare for…

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