Looking and listening to birds as we are alone with one another
Terrifying tabulations of what may be to come
Horrified to handshake or hug, “no touching!”
Fear and familiarity as we pass by each other
Ventilators breathe maybe two at a time.
Walk alone. My sister and my brother walk along?
Careful don’t want to be a carrier: carrying each other into an unknown
Cancelled, closed, careful, call on people.
Share so more can be there.
Zooming in zooming out just to see faces and familiar places
Free free free but it comes with a fee
Gloved, loved and rise above
Where does this lead?
Is there an end?
Our kids become our students and our students our kids
Two week increments of school day by day
Governors, guidance, and churches closed
Who will remain?
Look for the love
Sewers and sewers with toilet paper commodities for the commode
Everything was, now everyone is essential
Social distance to go the distance
Hope abounds through it all, risking and rewarding with life most precious.
Masked major leaguers in medicine, maintenance, moving, markets and mental health.
Making me a priority
Grocery bills, grocery times, groceries galore
Kindness is more.
Curb yourself, Curb your Enthusiasm just for a laugh
Nighttime Netflix and no one knows where we are going.
We’re staying in, if there is an inn to stay.
Eldery and infirmed behind glass restricted but to revere, remember, regard, relish, respect.
Look but don’t touch.
Life is worth too much.
But here we are. Hope seeing us for who we can be, without all the hype, hysteria, makeup and masks.
Give gratitude for gifts we may have once taken for granted
Rise up singing like your Italian Grandpa or family of whom you are proudest
In years we can share our story of when love was the loudest.
I can’t even remember when our lives exactly changed but it sure feels as though it happened overnight. The last few weeks, nothing but a blurred speck in the depths of my memory…will forever live in infamy in the depths of my mind. Marks so indelible, they have scarred skin and tissue for life. I come to you live and raw, on March 28, 2020, from the US Epicenter, NY.
I am all over the map with my emotions lately but first and foremost I’d like to address the sheer exhaustion that I hear about a majority of people absolutely identifying with. Personally, as an individual who battlers anxiety and PTSD on a daily basis, I’m accustomed to living life 24/7, 365 in a flight or fight state of being
Therefore yes, while I am exhausted, I am well aware of why and I feel that I’m seeing a lot of people asking why they are so exhausted. Survival is exhausting peeps. It’s your body’s physiological response to a threat, rather rooted in reality or paranoia, it matters not. You, me, we all, were designed with staunch survival modes built in for lifelong survival optimization. It’s called “hypervigilence,” and I for one, can thank it for keeping me alive.
In times such as during this Corona pandemic, the innate will to survive and the mechanisms it employs can be endlessly tiring. My advice, don’t stress about stressing. What you are feeling, whether on a conscious or subconscious level, IS real and is warranted. Rather than wait and exacerbate it by hinting endlessly for it’s etiology, acknowledge it, accept it, and let…it go…. Know it is what is is, acknowledge it, accept it and set it free. Let your inner voice be your guide. Feeling tired? Take a nap, just go with the flow. It’s okay to feel afraid in these times of certain uncertainty. More to follow soon. Love yourselves and the people you’re quarantined with. You’re all you may have in the coming weeks.
Climbing the walls ’til my nailbeds bleed
Words on your tongue, only built to deceive.
No energy left to go blow for blow
Secrets exposed, with nowhere to go
No reason to fear, I won’t call your bluff
I truly do think that I’ve had enough
Sorrow coursing steadily through all of my veins
Refusing to let emotion take over the reins
Whatever the outcome I’ll shall rest assured
Being played by you has been fucking absurd
You wormed your way in with pizzaz and a smile
A wolf in sheep’s clothing, well disguised all the while
Always setting your mark and you making your moves
Not giving one fuck about who you lose
Gave you all that I had, but it wasn’t enough
What will you do now that I know all of your stuff
Lies upon lies, hurt swells, then subsides
Lips pursed tight, no one more the wise
Rest that worried mind, your secrets I will keep
Question is though, how did I get in so deep
Searing agony inside, but my feelings I stuff
Realizing that I will never be enough
I kept it so real through thick and through thin
Despite all my pain throbbing deep from within
I wish you no harm, want to see you succeed
I believe in your mission, your hopes and your dreams
No one with a conscience could do what you do
But remember in time, karma always comes due
Everything now, so thoroughly clear
Try all you want, but you can’t be sincere
A suffering soul, projecting self hate
Immeasurable pain, no one else can translate
Let business be business and peasure be pleasure
Giving you support through joint endeavors
No longer will I be your pawn
Should I or shouldn’t I make you gone
The start of a new journey begins with, simply putting one foot in front of the other and walking towards the hurt, the pain that makes you want a new start. waking up in the morning and realizing there is a purpose, a reason! Trying to figure it out will take time, time that nobody thinks they have. You have to just believe in yourself, and have hope! If life ever gets to hard to stand, kneel, just close your eyes and think, im here for a reason there is something out there for me and even You!
I am the wild
Fragmented shards of broken glass
I am the free
Unexpected outpouring of
showing my most inner self
I am human
Tears of the purest joy
droplets of pain
in a collective muddled river that twists and winds
meandering through life
basking in and absorbing
the rays of the morning sun
becoming a homogeneous mixture
I am the healer
Wade in my healing waters
find comfort and solace
as you snuggle
enraptured in my wings
radiating love and strength
So that you may take flight
As I have